I'm Alive

It's been a long time since I have watched these lights alone
I look around my life and you are gone
I might have done something to keep you if I'd known
How unhappy you'd become
I was dreaming of you, with my heart in your hand
And I was following through, my beautiful plan
And now I'm rolling down this Canyon Drive
With your laughter in my head
Gonna have to block it out somehow to survive
'Cause those dreams are dead and I'm alive
I wanna go where I never hear your name
I wanna lose my sorrow and be free again
And I know I've been insane
When I think of places that I could have been
And I was dreaming of you, with my heart in your hand
And I was following through, my beautiful plan
Standing here by the highway side
Watching these trucks roll by
Four inches from my face
Yes, thinkin' about the time I've wasted
And the pleasure we once tasted
Looking up and down this road
I've been here before
I wanna be here no more
And now I'm rolling down California 5
With your laughter in my head
Gonna have to block it out somehow to survive
'Cause those dreams are dead and I'm alive
Yes, baby, I'm alive
Hey, look at the way I believed in you and loved you all these years
Now you can fill your swimming pool with all my salty tears
You could have told me what was in your heart, but baby, you lied
And I thought that it would kill me, but I'm alive
Yes, baby, I'm alive