Total Disaster

[00:08.22] C-Lance
[00:10.44] I went from an outcast in the back
[00:12.43] Fillin' up with doubt fast
[00:13.51] To a well balanced individual to outlast
[00:16.27] Anything comin' my way
[00:17.46] I don't avoid it, I want it today
[00:18.96] Give me whatever you want
[00:19.61] I'mma take it and burn it like "Oh they don't wanna be saved"
[00:21.78] I ain't a fool like my dad, but it ain't cool to stay mad
[00:24.42] These dudes view me, YouTube me, glued to my past
[00:27.20] And they're like "You ain't been livin' the same
[00:28.33] We liked you better when full of the pain"
[00:29.93] I told 'em I had to let it go, let it be for me
[00:31.57] 'Cause I was afraid of my brain
[00:32.70] Straight up it felt like that, when I fell like that
[00:35.21] And I'm pissy but I belt you but the belt strikes back
[00:38.02] And it's been taller for me but I don't wanna leave
[00:39.42] I got plenty more I've gotta do
[00:40.62] And I've been headed forward in the booth
[00:42.20] I am an animal, I'm on the loose
[00:43.60] You are the reason I am alive
[00:44.97] You better believe that I'm gonna strive
[00:46.16] Until I'm deceased and I'm gonna rot
[00:47.75] As long as I'm breathin', stick to the plot
[00:48.92] Because the alternative ain't looking good
[00:50.47] It's got me doin' what I should
[00:51.91] Look at me grow, look at me prosper
[00:52.92] Look at 'em looking at me getting shook, yeah
[00:55.14] They told me I would be nothing
[00:56.84] I love it, it's one of the reasons I'm here
[01:00.01] I'm not the type that would like it if I ended up
[01:03.35] Like I'm one of my peers
[01:05.39] To be a total disaster
[01:10.23] I'm not a total disaster
[01:15.86] They said I never would amount to shit
[01:17.36] Back when I was soundin' out the alphabet
[01:19.49] Learnin' how to count, they count me out
[01:21.03] Doubt would cloud my head
[01:22.06] My teachers called me out
[01:23.17] The kids clownin' me 'bout how I F'd the test we took
[01:25.25] Took my history book, kicked me out the class
[01:27.47] So now my desk was in the hall
[01:28.70] All the students goin' to lunch would laugh at me
[01:30.97] Gettin' hassled by the staff and faculty
[01:33.13] I should be glad to leave, it's after three
[01:34.51] But home ain't any better
[01:35.97] Catch a beatin' but I'm still alive like Eddie Vedder
[01:38.85] Guess they're right that I might not amount to zilch
[01:40.63] Told me I ain't shit then drove it in my skull with power drills
[01:43.40] Cryin' over sour milk, but gallons spilled
[01:45.25] Went from drivin' power wheels to county jail
[01:47.22] Feel like I carry around a thousand pounds of guilt
[01:49.48] My knees are beginning to weaken
[01:50.72] As an adult, you would think I woulda learned
[01:52.26] Takin' the feelings I had as a teen
[01:53.68] Ended up making a positive turn
[01:55.19] Livin' the dream
[01:55.78] Shit is the opposite, got it and lost every dollar I earned
[01:57.70] Then I hit bottom, my father pretended
[01:59.24] He thought it would cause a concern
[02:00.11] Instead they said
[02:00.71] They told I would be nothin'
[02:02.39] I love it, it's one of the reasons I'm here
[02:06.00] I'm not the type that would like it
[02:07.86] If I ended up like I'm one of my peers
[02:10.66] To be a total disaster
[02:16.05] I'm not a total disaster
[02:22.86] I'm a disaster
[02:23.79] But the rap I speak's a masterpiece
[02:25.32] Black metal blast disaster with a strap in each
[02:28.63] Never contested, brand is building like I'm Master P
[02:31.24] I told Lance I'll spazz on anything you pass to me
[02:33.59] Now cats are mad at me because I'm shredding beats to bits
[02:36.53] But each fix will knock the fuckin' teeth out of a piece of shit
[02:39.30] At least I get props from veterans in hip-hop
[02:41.53] They not trippin' less they trippin' off how fuckin' beast I get
[02:44.64] I've got a lot of hate but gotta say I've ceased to let
[02:47.19] That affect me, got respect that many reach to get
[02:50.28] I spend a G at least off beats when I'm releasin' heat
[02:52.76] Six months you sittin' on the beat, ain't even leased it yet
[02:56.60] Shit I haven't even reached my peak
[02:58.13] The me you've met is mad and the plan is to unleash the freak
[03:01.28] Pagans, pawns, pedophiles, pedestrians
[03:03.67] Police, I'll sink my teeth in any creature if I need to feast
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