Shades of Jade

[00:01.27] LB, baby
[00:05.42] LB, baby
[00:08.56] Now people don't know all this
[00:10.19] But behind the performances and those poems I spit
[00:13.04] All the showmanship and those cold ass fits
[00:15.50] I struggle with extreme loneliness
[00:17.36] Overtures and bids
[00:18.67] To connect with folks go unnoticed and miss
[00:20.82] I try holdin' it in
[00:21.99] Play close to the vest
[00:23.08] When I scroll through my phone
[00:24.30] I notice all my closest friends
[00:25.72] Disappeared like the ocean mist
[00:27.41] The light along the coast
[00:28.83] It grows so dim
[00:29.90] How do I cope with it?
[00:30.97] All those cliche ways you can think of
[00:32.83] Drink up
[00:33.23] One cup, 2 cups, 13 cups
[00:35.25] Link up with people beneath my frequency
[00:38.00] My inner circle got inner circles
[00:40.21] Got inner circles like a tree trunk
[00:42.24] Thirst to be perfect, be worthy, be enough
[00:44.40] Hard to keep up
[00:45.24] I just keep adding beads on the string til I'm freed up
[00:47.62] And one day I'm healed up
[00:48.97] Pain and uncertainty are free but
[00:50.41] Peace takes effort and we ain't guaranteed love
[00:54.44] Shades of jade
[00:58.93] Cloudy or clear
[01:03.34] Beads on a string
[01:08.61] Keep adding on
[01:09.75] Keep adding on
[01:11.19] First of motherfuckers could nary be me
[01:12.90] Know how I know?
[01:14.18] I can barely be me
[01:15.58] Pretty as I am
[01:16.75] Witty as I am
[01:17.74] Some can't embrace what ethnicity I am
[01:20.09] Not everybody ready to mentally expand
[01:21.94] Get beyond whatever barrier they in
[01:24.11] Got called racial slurs every day from the age of four
[01:27.09] Til I was of age to pour
[01:28.75] That creme liqueur
[01:29.72] By then my spirit was scathed and sore
[01:31.93] I thought fame was the cure
[01:33.04] For what I wasn't getting and the pain I endured
[01:35.38] Saw pops once a year
[01:36.34] But he ain't speak the language
[01:37.88] Moms problematic
[01:38.84] Unc's in the streets active
[01:39.84] I was caregiver, peacemaker
[01:41.09] Therapist of the family
[01:42.29] A lot for anyone
[01:43.25] Let alone a 10 year old
[01:44.54] That's why show biz the perfect venue though
[01:46.61] Hey look at me
[01:47.53] Look how great I am
[01:48.66] Look how paid I am
[01:49.76] All the fame I have
[01:50.95] All of this is really a repayment plan
[01:53.00] Cause I needed fam to give that validation stamp
[01:55.56] I needed parenting
[01:56.70] I needed security
[01:57.69] I might be in therapy but I made it man
[01:59.96] So while they debating
[02:01.08] Who the best Asian this and that is
[02:03.17] Best LB statement
[02:04.42] Greatest piece of work I've ever created
[02:06.62] And recreated
[02:07.77] And keep creating
[02:09.07] And repeat daily
[02:10.04] Is LB baby
[02:12.26] LB baby
[02:14.51] LB baby
[02:14.56] Shades of jade
[02:18.98] Cloudy or clear
[02:23.36] Beads on a string
[02:28.66] Keep adding on
[02:29.83] Keep adding on
[02:36.44] LB, baby
[02:41.00] LB, baby
[02:45.69] LB, baby
[02:50.04] LB, baby
[02:54.50] LB, baby
[02:58.94] LB, baby
[03:03.49] LB, baby
[03:07.81] Shades of jade
[03:12.07] Cloudy or clear
[03:15.16] (Go on and change your mind again)
[03:16.57] Beads on a string
[03:22.03] Keep adding on
[03:23.16] Keep adding on
[03:25.54] Day after day
[03:30.12] Cloudy or clear
[03:33.24] (Go on and change your mind again)
[03:34.40] Beads on a string
[03:39.70] Keep adding on
[03:40.71] Keep adding on
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