I Had A Heart

[00:17.18] I walk on this frozen lake,
[00:19.15] Hoping to hit a spot that's weaker than I was,
[00:24.21] A year a half ago.
[00:28.13] I remember how Christmas used to be,
[00:31.21] Before she spat me out.
[00:33.37] And left me to roam this empty place.
[00:38.39] If I ran to the city sub lights, I'd still feel dull and worn out.
[00:46.49] It's time to start over and move on.
[00:50.49] My grandma keeps going on about the New Year
[00:57.52] She says "you can't miss what you forget."
[01:02.53] I'll spend the night slamming doors,
[01:05.58] Smoking outside my grandparents house.
[01:08.65] I thought Christmas was the time for us to feel loved.
[01:14.64] I feel like no one understands me anymore.
[01:22.70] Nothing is how it was last year.
[01:26.79] But it's cold and lonely, just like before.
[01:31.72] It's time to start over and move on.
[01:35.88] My grandma keeps going on about the New Year.
[01:41.85] She says "you can't miss what you forget."
[01:46.92] I'll sit and wonder who she loves instead of me.
[01:50.91] If she told me who it was,
[01:53.92] I'm afraid it would rip my heart out
[01:56.99] For my family to see.
[02:09.07] At least they'd know I had a heart.
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