Dreamer, Pt. 2

[00:17.02] schizo
[00:19.78] Its dreez
[00:23.38] Lately i been up for days
[00:24.70] barely even blinking
[00:26.00] rolling blunts and pouring cups
[00:27.66] to keep myself from thinking
[00:28.93] in the midst of all this
[00:29.86] pressure i been sinking
[00:30.62] niggas tryna fuck in this industry they be
[00:33.25] winking and im just a girl
[00:35.15] 19 with dreams of being on the big screen
[00:37.78] blue jeans, Jordans kinda cute
[00:39.47] but still can spit mean
[00:40.66] gas bill be getting high
[00:42.07] so fuck it imma bring the heat
[00:43.36] im tryna eat and it aint sweet
[00:44.82] until im checking into suites
[00:46.91] i doubled back and made it happen
[00:48.45] Started writing poetry
[00:49.64] And now im noticed off this rapping
[00:51.48] Making music for niggas in chicago
[00:53.35] that be trappin
[00:54.29] but still can switch it up
[00:55.62] for all the poets that be snapping
[00:57.18] They told me that im blowing up
[00:58.63] Im tryna get bigger
[01:00.18] feel good to played by radios
[01:01.95] and not these niggas
[01:03.13] A lot of people told me i wont make it
[01:04.97] How you figure
[01:05.97] then i realize they want what i got
[01:07.85] or they just bitter lame niggas
[01:09.07] I never cared about my fate
[01:11.56] Cause i know i got what it takes
[01:13.05] So im indifferent to the hate
[01:14.56] I got too many hopes at stake
[01:15.93] But still im drowning
[01:17.29] I found myself sorrounded
[01:18.43] By doctors and machines
[01:19.55] My blood rushing, head pounding
[01:21.54] They say women dont make it
[01:22.78] Unless they on they knees
[01:24.03] So i got down on my knees
[01:25.32] Started praying God please
[01:27.24] Not religious but i want it bad
[01:28.90] So i be praying boy
[01:30.38] Niggas trynna play me like a game
[01:31.97] but i aint playing boy
[01:33.02] Mama barely paying for the crib
[01:35.03] it was never this hard when i was
[01:36.82] laying in the crib as a baby who
[01:38.21] would think that i would make it
[01:41.09] this far but ill be damned
[01:42.51] if i made it here and wont
[01:43.63] go another yard shit is getting hard
[01:45.07] I want it all
[01:46.35] Fuck a deal if they aint talking right
[01:47.62] Been running my city for so long
[01:49.42] That i aint walking right
[01:50.88] Im from Chicago
[01:51.89] The city people die for
[01:53.60] Where they aint talking they
[01:54.73] just shooting at the rivals
[01:56.36] My grandma died in her sleep
[01:58.16] next to a bible
[01:59.49] Im starting to feel like my life
[02:00.72] Is just a recital
[02:01.78] Niggas faking so I be writing
[02:02.98] til my fingers aching
[02:04.86] I stop breathing before i even think
[02:06.43] I aint gon make it
[02:07.93] And everybody out here
[02:09.94] thinking everybody sleeping on em
[02:11.17] I set alarms and its creeping on em
[02:13.55] I had a fucked up life
[02:14.89] Im breaking down
[02:16.18] So whenever i get me a swisher
[02:17.53] Im breaking down
[02:18.76] and whenever i get me a bottle
[02:20.40] Im pouring up, thoughts racing
[02:22.07] and Im stuck
[02:23.18] soon enough im slowing up
[02:24.21] then i get to throwing up
[02:25.97] All the pain i was feeling
[02:27.40] All the tears I was shedding when
[02:29.05] the obstacles was given
[02:30.54] All the niggas on my side
[02:31.75] That told me they would ride
[02:33.17] But they lied now Im in
[02:34.47] the building and they outside
[02:36.54] So in the future when you see me
[02:37.97] in that beamer
[02:39.37] just know i wasnt shit
[02:40.48] I turned myself into dreamer pt 2
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