All I Ever Am

[01:25.73] I think too much of all that's gone
[01:29.36] Of how it was before my thoughts
[01:32.77] Obsessed with choices made for sure
[01:36.48] In ignorance of history
[01:39.84] And consequence as more and more
[01:43.68] I misremember hopelessly
[01:47.53] The way love turned out every time
[01:50.71] Was never quite enough
[01:54.50] I lose all my life like this
[01:57.82] Reflecting time and memories
[02:01.35] And all for fear of what I'll find
[02:04.75] If I just stop and empty out my mind
[02:09.52] Of all the ghosts and all the dreams
[02:13.00] All I hold to in belief
[02:16.58] That all I ever am
[02:19.15] Is somehow never quite all I am now
[03:47.89] I think too much of all to come
[03:51.64] Of how it will be after I give up
[03:55.92] My weary dance with age
[03:58.80] And resignation moves me slow
[04:02.40] Toward a dark and empty stage
[04:05.87] Where I can sing the world I know
[04:09.41] The way love turns out every time
[04:12.84] Will never be enough
[04:16.63] I waste all my world like this
[04:20.23] Intending time and memories
[04:23.58] And all for fear of what I'll find
[04:27.10] If I just stop and empty out my mind
[04:31.44] Of all the ghosts and all the dreams
[04:35.22] All I hold to in belief
[04:38.61] That all I ever am
[04:41.48] Is somehow never quite all I am now
[05:07.69] And all for fear of what I'll find
[05:12.00] If I just stop
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