boxes

My new place was humble
Just a little Utah-shaped room
In the basement of a butcher shop
One little window
Looking out on a graveyard

It was the first place I found

I didn't have any furniture
I let Jackie have it all
Wanted to be as low-conflict as possible
So all I had was a bunch of frayed cardboard boxes
Borrowed from a friend
Who had just left a poet
They had sharpie scrawls all over them
Naming rooms that I didn't have
"office"
"Attic"
"Den"

I started out sleeping on the floor
Thinking, ok tomorrow I'll run out to the store
Get an air mattress or something
But-i don't know, I just kind of got used to it

It felt monastic
Like I was doing penance

Such a good boy

Oh yeah, the place had spiders too

Atone for the darkness within

That's right Shelob!
Yeah, I named her Shelob
So fucking basic

You belong here with us spiders
Hidden away in the basement
With other cursed things

I had had plans to you know, do the place up
But I just kind of lost my drive
I ordered some basics on Amazon
A beanbag chair, a bath mat, a couple sauce pans
A... colander?
Not like I cooked

Honestly the grocery store freaked me out
I really didn't want to leave the house
That's death out there!
Actual, literal death

I could hear it
Going door to door

Yeah no thanks

Mostly I did delivery
A lot of delivery

Tracking the driver on my phone
Watching them out the peephole
Waiting till they're gone
Crack open the door
Snatch my food
Slam it shut
Sanitize

Eat my dindin with a plastic fork
Reclining on my boxes
While binging old horror movies
Night of the Living Dead
Bride of Frankenstein
And The Wolfman