Farewell #5

Waking up in a world giving up on me,
Every single fucking day.
The voice inside my head
That tells me goodbye,
I never thought I'd say it, but there's a finish line.

I can't really tell what scares me so much, maybe it's the passing of time or the loss of the clutch. And I feel that this way is leading me in unknown lands, but I'll still carry on and pray.

I can't help myself, I watch myself as I fall apart,
With empty hands but a beating heart.
I never thought I'd ever think of leaving everything behind,
Without packing my things and watch it all as it sinks.
Before my weary eyes.

You'd say I was there to love you,
I'd say I was there to prove myself.
And I hate my selfishness, and I hate my self-defense
But it's me who surrenders, and you're the one to blame.

And you were the offender, but we are all the same.
I'll always wait for you to apologize and for me to never forgive you.
Goodnight.