What have I become?

[00:00.97] And now I really don't care no more
[00:05.95] Things never go the way they should
[00:09.92] It's not sad but it's not okay
[00:16.90] I turned in to what I am
[00:21.95] As if nothing else could hurt me
[00:25.91] And everything I wanted too
[00:33.97] And in a land with a thousand seasides,
[00:37.91] I never really learned to swim at all
[00:41.96] I really wanted to
[00:49.98] And when the music comes over their houses
[00:53.99] And I thought
[00:57.97] And now I really don't care no more
[01:02.90] Efforts never made a change here
[01:05.93] And high hopes made it worse
[01:13.91] And I turned into what I am
[01:17.91] As If nothing else could reach me
[01:21.98] And in a house with a thousand windows
[01:25.90] And if I only knew why I was drawn to this
[01:29.95] It is sad and I'm not okay
[01:38.05] And when the music comes over the houses
[01:43.05] Sadness never was a choice here
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