Conversations

[00:10.81] I remember vividly
[00:12.07] My tears dropping on the grey carpet on the top step
[00:15.51] Pops giving me his best guess
[00:17.09] Me confessing the burning question stressing and concerning me and
[00:20.26] Turning me to a wet mess
[00:22.58] It's probably nothing
[00:23.27] I get it, I'm aware
[00:25.03] I know it's probably stupid to be scared
[00:27.03] But these days are flying past us and nobody seems to care
[00:29.88] It's like we're sprinting towards a brick wall we're pretending isn't there
[00:32.96] What happens when we hit it?
[00:34.15] Do we split into a million bits
[00:36.26] Or do we come back as a bullfrog and talk in ribbits?
[00:38.51] What is it? What is it?
[00:39.76] You got the answer so give it, so give it, so give it
[00:42.48] Don't lie, what happens when we die?
[00:44.57] Dad says, Georgie I'm just guessing from what I've been told
[00:47.35] Probably thinking, "How'd I raise this emo fucking nine-year- old?"
[00:50.14] Since I'm sorta really not religious it's a crapshoot
[00:53.05] I roll a pair of dice
[00:54.10] Although the thought of paradise is very nice
[00:56.69] In my heart I know I don't believe in magic
[00:58.84] So I'm thinking maybe death is like eternal TV static
[01:01.60] Or returning to the state before your birth
[01:03.64] Absorbed into the earth
[01:05.48] The fewer hours left the more they're worth
[01:08.42] I admit that it's difficult to think about
[01:09.97] I think everybody got a little bit of doubt
[01:11.46] You don't get to hide from it even if you shout
[01:12.96] Not a soul on the planet gets to wiggle out
[01:14.33] And he said that I know that's it's tough to take in son but it's so early
[01:16.66] I can see you're in a hurry but don't worry cause
[01:19.43] That isn't for a long, long time
[01:22.12] That isn't for a long, long time
[01:24.84] That isn't for a long, long time
[01:27.71] That isn't for a long, long, long, long time
[01:32.51] Life moves fast
[01:34.51] Made the mistake of blinking, twenty years passed
[01:37.02] Now I'm sitting in my living room in Brooklyn with my father
[01:39.73] We don't bother doing Christmas in the Bay any longer
[01:42.99] It's first time that we've had this conversation
[01:45.49] He says "it's tough to take in
[01:48.88] I know we're not quite ancient
[01:51.16] But we've reached age where we should probably talk arrangements
[01:54.10] We could take it several routes
[01:55.84] We could sell the house
[01:57.04] We can't work forever, eventually money will run out
[02:00.06] That's a spot taking a loan would help us cover
[02:02.39] Which would make it tougher to leave something for you and your brother"
[02:05.28] Stop—can't you see?
[02:06.71] Every meal that you paid for me
[02:08.90] All this power to chase a dream
[02:11.07] All this privilege not to crave riches
[02:13.04] But it's plain to me the key fact is it's easy to act like cash means jack shit if
[02:16.79] You never lacked it
[02:17.69] And the greatest honor I could have is to make a buck and pass back a
[02:20.74] Fraction of all the happiness you gave to me
[02:23.10] And I will never make you live where you don't aim to be
[02:25.66] Age is just data
[02:26.79] We paint our story A to Z then dip out
[02:28.67] R.I.P. rip out, we tear out the pages
[02:30.60] Tear up the stage and we take a seat
[02:32.25] Making a vacancy
[02:33.21] Famous or not, we fade from the plot
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[02:41.22] Every day when a new night falls
[02:42.40] I ride around the sun on this big blue ball
[02:43.71] I get a bit further from the kid called Paul
[02:45.43] And I get a bit closer to the big brick wall
[02:46.80] But since inching up to that fence
[02:48.13] I can run my fingers against all the bricks and mortar and sense
[02:51.26] That it's not so cold and so dense
[02:53.11] And although I'm mournful I've known that I'm not immortal
[02:55.12] I'm not banging into stone but I'm more heading through this portal
[02:57.92] We're born to return to home we're all born to be mincemeat
[03:00.56] Everything dies except for Papaya King hotdogs on 86th St
[03:03.83] Dad hands me a napkin tells me it's been the same since the fifties
[03:06.87] He didn't always love the city but dammit he'll miss me
[03:09.31] How can you miss something after you leave, I agree that it's sad but please
[03:13.10] Don't dwell on it Dad, because
[03:15.16] That isn't for a long, long time
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[03:22.18] That isn't for a long, long time
[03:22.70] That isn't for a long, long time
[03:23.65] That isn't for a long, long, long, long time
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