Is This What You Wanted

[00:00.14] Write this down on my headstone
[00:03.41] "It wasn't what I hoped for"
[00:07.16] I'm twenty-four and I'm older
[00:09.78] I've still got a world of doubt on my shoulder
[00:13.66] That's been eating me away
[00:16.90] From the inside out
[00:20.57] What am I supposed to say?
[00:23.85] That I'm happy now?
[00:27.38] Walk the block in the morning
[00:30.34] Were the weekends always this boring?
[00:34.23] Fall asleep in the shower
[00:37.52] The water runs for an hour
[00:41.18] Sit alone at the table
[00:44.67] Check the fridge again maybe
[00:47.04] This is all that I hoped for
[00:51.56] But I was dumb when I left home
[00:55.35] Got a restless head in the nighttime
[00:58.74] I haven't slept that wеll in a good while
[01:01.70] I'd take pills just to calm down
[01:05.36] But I don't need one morе thing to depend on
[01:09.31] I've been sober for a week
[01:11.37] Pushing through the pain
[01:16.23] But it's all the same to me
[01:19.58] Hours into days
[01:22.91] Walk the block in the morning
[01:26.14] Are the weekends always this boring?
[01:29.62] Fall asleep in the shower
[01:33.21] The water runs for an hour
[01:36.76] Sit alone at the table
[01:40.26] Check the fridge again maybe
[01:43.85] This is all that I hoped for
[01:47.11] But I was dumb when I left home
[01:51.57]
[02:05.37] There is this weight on my chest
[02:11.12]
[02:13.62] It keeps my head down, shortens my breath
[02:20.69] It flattens my highs, fuels my regrets
[02:27.53] I'm scared it will hold me 'til I'm dead
[02:32.52] Walk the block in the morning
[02:35.17] Were the weekends always this boring?
[02:38.00] Fall asleep in the shower
[02:42.70] The water runs for an hour
[02:46.41] Sit alone at the table
[02:48.72] Check the fridge again maybe
[02:53.42] This is all that I hoped for
[02:56.70] That I was done when I left home
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