Even If It Kills Me

[00:06.56] I've got a lot of things to do tonight
[00:13.06] I'm so sick of making lists
[00:16.89] Of things I'll never finish
[00:19.52] I've lived here for the last twelve years
[00:25.88] Since early 1995
[00:29.68] All my shit has been in boxes
[00:32.36] But if I had a little more time to kill
[00:38.73] I'd settle every little stupid thing
[00:42.53] Yeah you'd think that I would
[00:45.24] But I'm too tired to go to sleep tonight
[00:51.37] And I'm too weak to follow dreams tonight
[00:57.75] For the first time in a long time
[01:01.09] I can say that I want to try
[01:04.28] To get better and overcome
[01:07.63] Each moment in my own way
[01:14.76] I wonder if I'll ever lose my mind
[01:21.10] I tried hard for awhile
[01:24.97] But then I kind of gave up
[01:27.68] Winter is killer when the sun goes down
[01:33.91] I'm really not as stubborn as I seem
[01:37.67] Said the knuckle to the concrete
[01:40.30] But I'm too tired to go to sleep tonight
[01:46.45] And I'm too weak to follow dreams tonight
[01:52.84] For the first time in a long time
[01:56.25] I can say that I want to try
[01:59.37] To get better and overcome
[02:02.77] Each moment in my own way
[02:08.52]
[02:34.04] I'm not saying that I'm giving up
[02:40.57] I'm just trying not to think
[02:44.67] As much as I used to
[02:46.88] Cause never is a lonely little messed up word
[02:53.53] Maybe I'll get it right some day
[02:57.73] For the first time in a long time
[03:01.18] I can say that I want to try
[03:04.26] I feel helpless for the most part
[03:07.52] But I'm learning to open my eyes
[03:10.87] And the sad truth of the matter is
[03:13.62] I'll never get over it but I'm gonna try
[03:17.26] To get better and overcome
[03:20.50] Each moment in my own way
[03:27.67] I sure want to get back on track
[03:33.93] And I'll do whatever it takes
[03:38.26] Even if it kills me
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