Don't You Want To Share The Guilt?

[00:48.26] BBQ food is good
[00:53.90] You invite me out to eat it, I should
[00:58.89] Go, but I'm feeling kind of nervous
[01:03.45] And not quite myself
[01:06.09] So I'm running late on purpose
[01:09.29] And I know this won't help
[01:12.25] How things have become between us
[01:15.14] But if I go you'll give me hell
[01:18.04] And that I don't know how to fix it
[01:21.54] Is making me unwell
[01:24.74] Well
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[01:36.68] I arrive at your house
[01:39.24] But you've just got up
[01:42.21] And you are wearing a towel
[01:44.77] And your eyes look dark
[01:48.22] I help to dry your body
[01:50.82] And I see your cut
[01:53.54] So I give you a plaster
[01:56.76] And we cover it up
[01:59.47] I say, "Have you been crying?"
[02:02.49] And you say, "Shut up"
[02:05.28] So we sit in the garden
[02:08.12] And touch the grass
[02:10.92] With our hands
[02:14.54]
[02:22.48] The sun is going down now
[02:25.18] And it's been okay
[02:28.10] You tell me all the things you did
[02:30.91] While I was away
[02:33.76] And this worries me somewhat
[02:38.53] But you say you're fine
[02:45.56] Listen
[02:50.62] Can you hear it?
[02:56.25] Does it speak?
[03:01.85] Will I feel it?
[03:07.68] Will it hurt?
[03:13.17] Am I near it?
[03:18.86] I don't know
[03:25.87] I don't know how more people haven't got mental health problems
[03:29.16] Thinking is one of those stressful things I've ever come across
[03:31.92] And not being able to articulate what I want to say drives me crazy
[03:35.31] I think I should read more books
[03:36.95] Learn some new words
[03:38.04] My sister used to read the dictionary
[03:39.58] I'm gonna with that
[03:40.95] I'd like to travel
[03:42.19] I want to see India and the pyramids
[03:44.42] A whale and that race with all the bicycles in France
[03:47.18] I'm not sure about rivers, they scare me
[03:48.83] But I love swimming, I'm good at it
[03:50.48] And when I swim, I count the laps
[03:52.55] And this help me relax
[03:54.03] When I was younger, I saw a house burn down
[03:56.17] And I walked past it for the next six years
[03:58.57] Derelict, black, chalky and dangerous
[04:01.05] I wondered if squatters lived there
[04:02.66] I'm still not sure but I know there were never any parties
[04:04.46] 'Cause it was a shithole
[04:05.75] After a while the council got 'round to tidying up the town
[04:08.66] They decided it was an eyesore so they tore it down
[04:11.02] Behind the house was a wall with a few bits of crappy grafiti
[04:14.39] And the word 'Cunt' written in giant letters
[04:16.23] And now I walk past that
[04:17.65] I like going to the park
[04:18.75] I like walking through it
[04:19.98] I like taking my dogs there
[04:21.63] And friends, and I like being alone
[04:24.02] I like being able to shout
[04:25.14] But I wish I could be quiet
[04:26.30] When I'm quiet, people just think I'm sad
[04:28.18] And usually I am
[04:29.77] Sometimes when I'm at a really noisy train station
[04:32.62] One of the ones with the big fat trains like Kings Cross
[04:35.13] I feel like putting down my bags and shouting things out
[04:37.92] Because I've got something to say
[04:45.72] Don't you want to share the guilt?
[04:51.29] Don't think, just try and sleep
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