Finding My Purpose

[00:23.26] Yeah, scared of love, scared of lies
[00:25.55] Thought we were the perfect pair but apprently you paralyzed
[00:28.41] You used to bare it all, and now you barley care to try
[00:31.07] And rarely let me in your territory cos you terrified
[00:33.82] I swear to god, nothing compares to how we share the vibe
[00:36.59] Baby we was parallel these other girls are paracites
[00:39.33] I saw your parents and I asked em what your spirits like
[00:42.42] They said your smile ain't been near as bright and neither has mine
[00:45.97] I used to think things get easy with time
[00:48.39] But now I see they just get easy at times
[00:50.40] Like when im drinking not thinking about
[00:51.51] How tonight you gon be sleep' in my arms
[00:53.72] My demons never rally leave fo' that long
[00:55.62] You know I'm strivin' for perfect, but life is a circus
[00:58.00] I'm grinding I'm working, while finding my purpose
[00:59.99] And reasons why I think I'm not worthless
[01:02.06] And sometimes I bite off more than I can chew
[01:04.77] Probably should've been prioritising you
[01:07.94] Say I love you with my mouth
[01:09.11] But my actions just ain't been as loud
[01:10.87] Thought I could blow up while also holding you down
[01:13.81] I'm lonley even when I've got hoes and homies around
[01:16.72] Searching for those moments we found, it never appeared
[01:20.34] If I never was clear, I ain't wanna seperate for 70 years
[01:24.74] Didn't think we'd ever be here, but here we are
[01:30.21] Had this fear of falling in love since
[01:31.85] I seen the marriage of my parents fail
[01:33.88] Life is only fair on a fairest wheel or in a fairytales
[01:36.13] Marijuana all in my fingernails, I ain't fairin' well
[01:38.86] Fake smile on my face,
[01:40.45] Afraid I ain't gon' wear it well from fairy rides to farewells
[01:43.79] Sad because I'm sober put your heart
[01:45.02] Inside a cast I'm so bad as a cassonova
[01:47.56] All I ask is you don't smash all these rappers I'm passing over
[01:50.27] Goin' backwards on my path to closure
[01:52.55] No GPS, the more I need you, you need me less
[01:55.76] Wish I could re-live life, wish I could relieve stress
[01:58.50] I get the same results, because I repeat steps
[02:01.37] I just can't resist, it's like I need regrets
[02:04.13] I look fine on my surface, but I'm honestly nervous
[02:06.20] I'm searching and searching, but won't find my purpose
[02:08.27] And reasons why I think I'm not worhtless
[02:09.85] And sometimes I bite off more than I can chew
[02:12.52] Didn't know It was demoralizing you
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