Fingertips

[00:01.31] When I look back, tracing fingertips over plastic bags
[00:09.97] Thinking, "I wish I could extrapolate some small intention
[00:17.71] Or maybe get your attention for a minute or two"
[00:28.02] Will I die? Or will I get to that ten-year mark?
[00:34.74] Where I beat the extinction of telomeres?
[00:41.54] And if I do, will you be there with me, Father, Sister, Brother?
[00:49.61] Charlie, stop smoking, Caroline, will you be with me?
[00:56.95] Will the baby be alright? Will I have one of mine?
[01:03.08] Can I handle it even if I do? You said that my mind
[01:11.83] It's not fit, or so they said, to carry a child, I guess I'll be fine
[01:24.56] It wasn't my idea, the cocktail of things that twist neurons inside
[01:32.15] But without them, I'd die
[01:36.29] They say there's irony in the music, it's a tragedy, I
[01:43.82] See nothing Greek in it
[01:47.16] Give me a mausoleum in Rhode Island with Dad, Grandma, Grandpa
[01:53.67] And Dave, who hung himself real high
[01:59.25] In the National Park sky, it's a shame, and I'm crying right now
[02:05.86] To get to you, save you, if I take my life
[02:11.30] Find your astral body, put it into my eyes
[02:17.87] Give you two seconds to cry
[02:21.73] Take you home, I, I'll give you a blanket
[02:27.00] Your spirit can sit and watch TV by my side
[02:35.57] 'Cause, baby, I ran through a time when I felt you were doing it
[02:45.35] I couldn't handle it, I was in Monaco
[02:50.02] I couldn't hear what they said on the telephone
[02:55.10] I had to sing for the prince in two hours
[02:59.05] Sat in the shower
[03:01.11] Gave myself two seconds to cry
[03:07.27] It's a shame that we die
[03:13.51] When I was 15, naked, next-door neighbors did a drive-by
[03:20.06] Pulled me up by my waist, long hair to the beach side
[03:26.08] I wanted to go out like you, swim with the fishes
[03:33.19] That he caught on Rhode Island beaches
[03:38.07] But, sometimes, it's just not your time
[03:43.90] Caroline, what kind of mother was she to say I'd end up in institutions?
[03:54.43] All I wanted to do was kiss Aaron Greene and sit by the lake
[04:02.31] Twisting lime into the drinks that they made
[04:09.01] Have a babe at 16, the town I was born in, and die
[04:19.18] Aaron ended up dead and not me
[04:22.70] What the fuck's wrong in your head to send me away never to come back?
[04:30.95] Exotic places and people don't take the place of being your child
[04:41.85] I give myself two seconds to cry
[04:47.25] Let it crash over me like the waves in the sea
[04:54.95] Call me "Aphrodite" as they bow down to me
[05:06.18] Sunbather, moon chaser, queen of empathy
[05:14.02] I give myself two seconds to breathe
[05:20.32] And go back to being a serene queen
[05:26.63] I just needed two seconds to be me
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