FEAR.

[00:03.09] Poverty's paradise
[00:09.28] I don't think I could find a way to make it on this earth
[00:14.09] What's up family, yeah, this yo' cousin Carl, man, just givin' you a call, man
[00:17.55] I know you been havin' a lot on yo' mind lately
[00:20.00] And I know you feel like, you know, people ain't been prayin' for you
[00:23.11] But you have to understand this, man, that we are a cursed people
[00:26.79] Deuteronomy 28:28 says
[00:29.31] "The Lord shall smite thee with madness, and blindness and astonishment of heart"
[00:33.32] See, family, that's why you feel like you feel like you got a chip on your shoulder
[00:37.60] Until you follow His commandments, you gonna feel that way
[00:38.33] Why God, why God do I gotta suffer?
[00:41.55] Pain in my heart carry burdens full of struggle
[00:44.50] Why God, why God do I gotta bleed?
[00:47.52] Every stone thrown at you restin' at my feet
[00:50.92] Why God, why God do I gotta suffer?
[00:54.05] Earth is no more, why don't you burn this muhf-?
[00:57.22] (I don't think I could find a way to make it on this earth)
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[01:26.16] I beat yo' ass, keep talkin' back
[01:28.00] I beat yo' ass, who bought you that?
[01:29.59] You stole it, I beat yo' ass if you say that game is broken
[01:32.55] I beat yo' ass if you jump on my couch
[01:34.78] I beat yo' ass if you walk in this house with tears in your eyes
[01:37.99] Runnin' from Poo Poo and Prentice
[01:39.45] Go back outside, I beat yo' ass, lil' -
[01:42.04] That homework better be finished, I beat yo' ass
[01:44.24] Yo' teachers better not be b- 'bout you in class
[01:46.64] That pizza better not be wasted, you eat it all
[01:49.04] That TV better not be loud if you got it on
[01:51.48] Them Jordans better not get dirty when I just bought 'em
[01:54.14] Better not hear 'bout you - on Keisha's daughter
[01:56.51] Better not hear you got caught up, I beat yo' ass
[01:58.87] You better not run to your father, I beat yo' ass
[02:01.22] You know my patience runnin' thin
[02:02.72] I got beaucoup payments to make
[02:04.44] County building's on my ass, tryna take my food stamps away
[02:07.76] I beat yo' ass if you tell them social workers he live here
[02:11.07] I beat yo' ass if I beat yo' ass twice and you still here
[02:14.09] Seven years old, think you run this house by yourself?
[02:17.18] N-, you gon' fear me if you don't fear no one else
[02:20.43] If I could smoke fear away, I roll that motherf- up
[02:25.93] And then I'd take two puffs
[02:29.69] Now (huh), now (huh)
[02:32.99] Now (huh), now (huh)
[02:36.30] Life's a b-, pull them - to the side now (pull them - to the side now)
[02:39.90] (I don't think I could find a way to make it on this earth)
[02:43.26] I'll prolly die anonymous, I'll prolly die with promises
[02:46.23] I'll prolly die walkin' back home from the candy house
[02:49.36] I'll prolly die because these colors are standin' out
[02:52.62] I'll prolly die because I ain't know Demarcus was snitchin'
[02:55.85] I'll prolly die at these house parties -
[02:59.15] I'll prolly die from witnesses leavin' me false accused
[03:02.18] I'll prolly die from thinkin' that me and your hood was cool
[03:05.47] Or maybe die from pressin' the line, actin' too extra
[03:08.96] Or maybe die because these smokers are more than desperate
[03:11.57] I'll prolly die from one of these bats and blue badges
[03:15.16] Body slammed on black and white paint, my bones snappin'
[03:18.42] Or maybe die from panic or die from bein' too lax
[03:21.41] Or die from waitin' on it, die 'cause I'm movin' too fast
[03:24.65] I'll prolly die tryna buy - at the apartments
[03:27.74] I'll prolly die tryna diffuse two homies arguin'
[03:31.08] I'll prolly die 'cause that's what you do when you're 17
[03:33.95] All worries in a hurry, I wish I controlled things
[03:37.09] If I could smoke fear away, I'd roll that mothaf- up
[03:42.52] And then I'd take two puffs
[03:45.08] I've been hungry all my life
[03:47.23] Now (huh), now (huh)
[03:49.78] Now (huh), now (huh)
[03:53.05] Life's a b-, pull them - to the side now (pull them - to the side now), now
[04:02.63] When I was 27, I grew accustomed to more fear
[04:06.07] Accumulated 10 times over throughout the years
[04:09.37] My newfound life made all of me magnified
[04:12.45] How many accolades do I need to block denial?
[04:15.86] The shock value of my success put bolts in me
[04:18.56] All this money, is God playin' a joke on me?
[04:22.45] Is it for the moment and will he see me as Job?
[04:25.56] Take it from me and leave me worse than I was before?
[04:28.52] At 27, my biggest fear was losin' it all
[04:31.99] Scared to spend money, had me sleepin' from hall to hall
[04:34.63] Scared to go back to Section 8 with my mama stressin'
[04:38.15] 30 shows a month and I still won't buy me no Lexus
[04:41.45] What is an advisor somebody that's holdin' my checks?
[04:44.48] Just to f- me over and put my finances in debt?
[04:47.73] I read a case about Rihanna's accountant and wondered
[04:51.12] How did the bad girl feel when she looked at them numbers?
[04:54.34] The type of - make me flip out and just - somethin', drill somethin'
[04:57.90] Get ill and fill ratchets with a lil' somethin'
[05:00.68] I practiced runnin' from fear, guess I had some good luck
[05:03.57] At 27 years old, my biggest fear was bein' judged
[05:06.72] How they look at me reflect on myself, my family, my city
[05:09.83] What they say 'bout me reveal if my reputation would miss me
[05:13.22] What they see from me would trickle down generations in time
[05:16.51] What they hear from me would make 'em highlight my simplest lines
[05:19.39] I'm talkin' fear, fear of losin' creativity
[05:22.51] I'm talkin' fear, fear of missin' out on you and me
[05:25.93] I'm talkin' fear, fear of losin' loyalty from pride
[05:29.17] 'Cause my DNA won't let me involve in the light of God
[05:32.45] I'm talkin' fear, fear that my humbleness is gone
[05:35.62] I'm talkin' fear, fear that love ain't livin' here no more
[05:38.62] I'm talkin' fear, fear that it's wickedness or weakness
[05:42.28] Fear, whatever it is, both is distinctive
[05:45.49] Fear, what happens on Earth stays on Earth
[05:48.10] And I can't take these feelings with me, so hopefully they disperse
[05:51.83] Within 14 tracks, carried out over wax
[05:54.96] Searchin' for resolutions until somebody get back
[05:57.96] Fear, what happens on Earth stays on Earth
[06:01.19] And I can't take these feelings with me, so hopefully they disperse
[06:04.62] Within 14 tracks, carried out over wax
[06:07.78] Wonderin' if I'm livin' through fear or livin' through rap
[06:10.78] Damn
[06:11.66] Goddamn you
[06:14.33] Goddamn me
[06:17.63] Goddamn us
[06:20.84] Goddamn we
[06:23.77] Goddamn us all
[06:29.15] Verse 2 says, "You only have I known of all the families of the Earth
[06:34.59] Therefore I will punish you for all your iniquities"
[06:38.68] So until we come back to these commandments
[06:41.13] Until you come back to these commandments
[06:43.16] We're gonna be in this place, we're gonna be under this curse
[06:46.10] Because He said He's gonna punish us
[06:48.07] The so-called Blacks, Hispanics, and Native American Indians
[06:52.48] Are the true children of Israel
[06:56.21] We are the Israelites according to the Bible
[06:58.87] The children of Israel, he's gonna punish us for our iniquities
[07:02.60] For our disobedience because we chose to follow other gods
[07:06.25] That man chastens his son, so the Lord, thy God, chasten thee
[07:11.04] So just like you'll chasten your own son
[07:14.05] He's gonna chasten you because He loves you
[07:17.07] So that's why we get chastised, that's why we're in the position we're in
[07:21.27] Until we come back to these laws, statutes and commandments
[07:24.44] And do what the Lord said, these curses is gonna be upon us
[07:28.67] We gonna be at a lower state in this life that we live, here, in today
[07:33.77] In the United States of America
[07:35.98] I love you, family, and I pray for you
[07:38.53] God bless you, shalom
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