Wanna Be Myself

[00:11.79] I just wanna do these drugs tonight 'cause I just wanna be myself
[00:18.06] I forgot how to be myself, I just really miss myself
[00:24.28] I just wanna do these drugs tonight 'cause I just wanna be myself (yeah)
[00:30.55] I forgot how to be myself (uh) I just really miss myself (somebody asked me, yeah)
[00:37.18] Somebody asked me, "What do you have outside of music that really makes you happy?"
[00:41.42] I thought about it and I ain't have no answer
[00:43.85] I started this shit ten years ago, it was just me and my manager
[00:47.07] On the road, doin' any shows, we was fillin' up this calendar
[00:50.12] But Matty's married now and it's a whole 'nothеr chapter
[00:53.26] While I'm in Gerryland, I'm still hеre wildin' as a bachelor
[00:56.46] Woke up next to a stranger, what's her name? I had to ask her
[00:59.54] She pro'ly thinks I got it all, but it's pain behind this laughter
[01:02.68] Hungover the mornin' after, close my drapes, make it blackout
[01:05.84] Tryna put the pieces together from last night when I blacked out
[01:08.99] On LSD, had a convo with my brother, it brought a lot up
[01:12.02] See I don't ever take the uniform off, and now I'm clocked out
[01:14.34] I just wanna do these drugs tonight 'cause I just wanna be myself
[01:20.78] I forgot how to be myself, I just really miss myself
[01:27.06] I just wanna do these drugs tonight 'cause I just wanna be myself
[01:33.23] I forgot how to be myself, yeah, I just really miss myself (yeah)
[01:39.34] Comin' down in my room all alone listenin' to Mac
[01:42.78] Last time he text me, I was fucked up, forgot I didn't hit him back
[01:45.85] Wish I could have spoken up, man, I just want my brother back
[01:48.95] But I mean, who am I to talk, bro? I'm still livin' like that
[01:52.18] They'll never understand what it's like to be a artist
[01:55.13] Make some shit I don't feel, yes men tell me it's the hardest
[01:58.21] They just wanna keep their jobs, stay on my good side, keep their office
[02:01.71] Keep us on the road, and no commission or the profits
[02:04.65] Now everything is peachy, and yeah, I feel Avicii
[02:07.77] Fifty thousand watchin' me, but I swear don't nobody see me
[02:10.72] But it's rich people problems, it's stamps all in my passport
[02:14.12] My mama tellin' me that, "This is everything you asked for"
[02:17.23] "What you want?"
[02:17.52] I just wanna do these drugs tonight 'cause I just wanna be myself
[02:23.48] I forgot how to be myself (how to be myself), I just really miss myself (great mind, great mind)
[02:29.73] I just wanna do these drugs tonight 'cause I just wanna be myself
[02:36.03] I forgot how to be myself, yeah, I just really miss myself
[02:42.13] My anxiety increases the higher that I climb
[02:45.58] I thought this shit would get easier, easier with time
[02:48.65] I'm happy in my mind, but at least I tell myself that
[02:51.99] Guess I'm damaged goods, I cannot help that
[02:55.05] Drugs take the edge off, hide inside my comfort zone
[02:58.40] Different girl every night, but worry I'ma die alone
[03:01.27] Me against the world, can't decide now what side I'm on
[03:04.28] Miss my family, but act like I can't even dial a phone
[03:07.48] Cheated on my girl, I felt like shit, and then I sped off
[03:10.51] Crept in the crib quiet, shower, took my YSL off
[03:13.64] She woke up, grab my dick, I couldn't help it, had to get off
[03:16.77] And if she gave me head, felt like I wanna blow my head off
[03:19.97] Think everybody cheats, everybody will
[03:23.27] Everybody leaves, but these drugs never will
[03:26.12] I know that sounds fucked up, but in the end, it's real
[03:29.24] 'Til I'm lost on a bender askin' myself, can I chill?
[03:32.32] This scale here will measure, 500 pounds of pressure
[03:35.58] The only thing to alleviate it is a stash in the dresser
[03:38.71] Illuminate my ugly, you really sure you love me?
[03:42.06] You deserve to know the truth, decide now what you think of me
[03:45.09] I just wanna do these drugs tonight 'cause I just wanna be myself
[03:51.33] I forgot how to be myself, I just really miss myself
[03:57.70] I just wanna do these drugs tonight 'cause I just wanna be myself
[04:03.86] I forgot how to be myself, yeah, I just really miss myself
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