Doesn't Feel the Same

[00:00.73] Being here just doesn't feel the same
[00:04.48] In my head is where I spend all day
[00:08.83] But I don't wanna waste this moon
[00:12.86] Wish I could love me the way I love you
[00:17.20] Bein' here just doesn't feel the same
[00:21.77] In my head is where I spend all day (Yeah)
[00:26.03] But I don't wanna waste this moon
[00:29.86] Wish I could love me the way I love you
[00:35.87] The way I love you
[00:40.21] The way I love you
[00:43.59] But I don't wanna waste this moon
[00:47.43] Wish I could love me the way I love you (Yeah)
[00:49.23] Therapy sessions to deal with the stress
[00:50.97] Guess the pain doesn't stop once you got a blue check
[00:53.13] Think that I'd give a fuck
[00:54.24] 'Bout the drama
[00:54.94] When there's generational trauma
[00:56.73] My fame doesn't want to address
[00:58.19] People I've never met try to come for my neck
[01:00.19] Guess I'm easy to hate
[01:01.40] But I'm hard to offend
[01:02.47] You see, we could spend all of
[01:03.66] Our time searchin' alternate timelines
[01:05.13] And still wouldn't find one where we'd become friends
[01:07.05] Knew to call for the place where I stay in your head
[01:09.54] Is it torture to know you will never consent?
[01:11.23] I told Dan, "Send me somethin' that's close to four minutes
[01:13.77] 'Cause I've got a lot to get off of my chest"
[01:15.78] I need depth to connect, I need time to reflect
[01:17.81] Listen, I've got some faults that I need to accept
[01:19.94] Like the fact that I never check in on my sis
[01:21.80] Even though it's as easy as sendin' a text
[01:24.38] Guess I always forget, there's no cards ever sent
[01:26.36] I lost track of what's truly important to gain
[01:28.78] Used to pray to the Lord to remove all the fake
[01:30.88] And then I looked around, there was nobody left
[01:32.73] Well, guess I was blessed, Mom says I should rest
[01:35.01] Girl says, "Mark, the truth is you're not like the rest"
[01:37.23] They told me, at best I would work at a desk
[01:39.31] Lookin' back, damn, it's funny how people project
[01:41.32] I've got vibes to protect, I've got lines to perfect
[01:43.44] This is workin' on somethin' 'til nothin' is left
[01:45.94] This is somewhere I went when my life was a mess
[01:47.74] Time I take all these demons and put 'em to bed
[01:49.91] Rip 'em out of my head, they say, "Rip me apart"
[01:52.07] I still think about when I wrote "Into Your Arms"
[01:54.48] See, I poured out my heart
[01:55.37] Just for people a couple years later to say, "We just like Ava's part"
[01:58.69] They don't care about art, they don't care how it's made
[02:00.87] Guess our biggest and best work aren't always the same
[02:02.45] See, the difference between being indie and not
[02:05.18] Is I keep my percentage and they get the fame
[02:06.94] Look, I'll take that train, cards are close to the vest
[02:09.33] See, they're all playin' checkers while I'm playing chess
[02:11.22] And since when did we start to steal art from real artists
[02:13.38] For follows on TikTok and likes on the Net?
[02:15.67] The blatant disrespect is appallin' at best, yeah
[02:19.44] You let an AI dictate all the thoughts in your head, yeah
[02:23.16] The bulk of your follows are bought, so where are your friends? Yeah
[02:27.35] I put in the work and then I let the work do the rest
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[02:48.25] Yeah
[02:49.81] Had someone tell me I'm a sinner 'cause I cuss in my raps
[02:52.17] What about the ones who made fun when my dad passed?
[02:54.41] If I tell 'em, "Fuck off," I'm bound to fit God's wrath
[02:56.28] 'Cause some people in the past decided that that's bad
[02:58.54] Their music is mediocre, the effort is half-ass
[03:00.38] Their album is ten tracks, they didn't write half that
[03:02.41] Their label sent over demos and told 'em to rap that
[03:04.35] That makes them a cover artist, I'm sorry, but that's facts
[03:06.73] They tell me, "Retract that," you see me laughed at
[03:08.51] When all that really matters is I get the last laugh
[03:10.67] How's that feel to have your mom
[03:11.86] And your dad pay
[03:12.46] Every bill that you have?
[03:13.31] Maybe I'm mad 'cause I never had that
[03:14.97] She's postin' her Cash App, she enters a cap card
[03:16.72] She used to use Facetune, but just to edit her butt
[03:18.90] Takin' pictures of her and all the girls at brunch
[03:20.63] It's a front, she's been miserable the last few months
[03:22.93] Enough's enough, I'm lyin', but I spill my guts
[03:24.78] I can't even write a line 'less it packs a punch
[03:26.69] Don't ask for much, instead I never have to rush
[03:28.80] You saved money, but it's funny, need money to save us
[03:30.82] I'm done with the fake love, they told me they need songs
[03:32.93] So they ask, "Mark, why's your art take so long?"
[03:35.12] Well, what's more important than pourin' yourself in somethin'
[03:36.80] That you know will live on even after you're long gone?
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