Break Down

[00:10.83] Hey, livin' like a mess, tryna numb my pain
[00:14.30] Battlin' the demons in my mind all day
[00:17.02] Either I'm fucked up or I'm insane
[00:19.54] Pop a pill, have a drink, don't break down
[00:21.78] Hey, livin' like a mess, tryna numb my pain
[00:25.27] Battlin' the demons in my mind all day
[00:27.95] Either I'm fucked up or I'm insane
[00:30.39] Pop a pill, have a drink, don't break down
[00:32.83] Let's flash back to a moment in time
[00:34.97] When I was just a troubled youth tryna cope with his mind
[00:37.66] With psychedelics, cocaine and some smokin aside
[00:40.35] When I was broke and overdosed and was hopin' to die
[00:43.23] Yeah, I guess the damaged of feelin' fuckin' abandoned
[00:46.05] Left me torn so I was slammin' like every drug I was handed
[00:48.94] I managed 'til I ran out then ravaged through my dad's house
[00:51.80] Gather all my shit so I could sell it for a bag now
[00:54.76] I couldn't tell that I was losin' myself
[00:56.87] And that the drugs only added to confusion I felt
[00:59.51] And when the homies hit me up I was refusing to help
[01:02.28] 'Cause I was busy tryna make a fuckin' noose with a belt
[01:05.65] But I was lonely and sick of feelin' depressed
[01:07.91] I was runnin' out of options and ways to cope with the stress
[01:10.73] I thought I'd feel bliss when the reaper came to collect
[01:13.21] 'Cause I'm done with the pain
[01:14.57] I'd rather hang to my death and say
[01:16.29] Hey, livin' like a mess, tryna numb my pain
[01:19.79] Battlin' the demons in my mind all day
[01:22.59] Either I'm fucked up or I'm insane
[01:25.32] Pop a pill, have a drink, don't break down
[01:27.23] Hey, livin' like a mess, tryna numb my pain
[01:30.68] Battlin' the demons in my mind all day
[01:33.45] Either I'm fucked up or I'm insane
[01:35.94] Pop a pill, have a drink, don't break down
[01:38.30] I never thought that my life would end when I'm seventeen
[01:40.89] Now I'm writing notes to my family I thought I'd never leave
[01:43.72] But all this pain I've been feeling, it's time to set it free
[01:46.38] Time to turn this torturous life of mine to a severed dream
[01:49.35] I waited 'til it was late and family was sleepin'
[01:51.62] Was thinkin' 'bout death
[01:52.81] I wasn't thinkin' 'bout 'em grievin'
[01:54.42] I thought that when they read the note they'd understand my reasons
[01:56.99] So I crept downstairs, time to finally conquer my demons
[02:00.17] I grabbed the booze plus a bottle of pills
[02:02.45] Ran 'em back up to my room feelin' hollow with chills
[02:05.14] Wasn't nervous, I was ready, I was confident still
[02:07.81] Put a dozen in my palm and started poppin' to kill
[02:10.55] Yeah, I'm finally doing it, time to call in the eulogist
[02:13.50] I got what I deserved, I took my life and I ruined it
[02:16.38] Thirty minutes later my feelin's started to fade
[02:18.76] Went from fallin' out of love to fallin' into my grave
[02:22.08] I'm gettin' woozy and passin' out in my bed
[02:24.24] I was fadin' in and out, a few moments away from death
[02:27.18] But somethin' in my stomach was travelin' up my chest
[02:29.72] I just fell to the floor and started puking up red
[02:32.95] And now the medicine is coverin' my hands
[02:35.16] They were drenched in it
[02:36.11] This is not the way that it was planned
[02:38.05] I crawled to my bed, I was barely able to stand
[02:40.65] This is not what I intended, I got myself in a jam
[02:43.83] I fucked up, I was broken and weak
[02:45.98] I never wanted to die, I wanted a moment of peace
[02:48.64] Felt my heart skip a beat when I woke from my sleep
[02:51.39] The next day and saw the suicide note at my feet
[02:54.02] And thought
[02:54.54] Hey, livin' like a mess, tryna numb my pain
[02:57.98] Battlin' the demons in my mind all day
[03:00.75] Either I'm fucked up or I'm insane
[03:03.23] Pop a pill, have a drink, don't break down
[03:05.43] Hey, livin' like a mess, tryna numb my pain
[03:08.98] Battlin' the demons in my mind all day
[03:11.65] Either I'm fucked up or I'm insane
[03:14.45] Pop a pill, have a drink, don't break down
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