FEAR

[00:00.00] Hello darkness, my old friend
[00:05.28] Knocking at my door again
[00:10.99] Beggin' me to come outsi-ide
[00:16.06] Let you back into my life
[00:20.72] Now, usually I'd be strong enough
[00:26.04] To lock the doors and keep 'em shut
[00:30.99] But not today, I'm desperate
[00:35.97] So go ahead and come on in
[00:41.77] So go ahead and come on in
[00:46.87] So go ahead and come on in
[00:54.29] OCD is worse than ever, hands are bleedin', maybe I should take the pills, don't
[00:57.70] Know what's goin' on with me, some days I actually think I might be schizo—
[01:01.58] Phrenic, prolly not, but even writin' this is makin' me begin to spiral, oh, God
[01:09.43] Made a promisе to myself I wouldn't let the fеar back in, but then I did, though
[01:12.93] Told the world that I was sick of runnin', then went back to runnin', what a joke
[01:17.00] Disappointed, yeah, me too, I thought I finally had finally made a breakthrough, guess not
[01:24.28] It's the same song and dance, you've all seen it before
[01:27.52] Darkness holds out his hand, then we walk to the floor
[01:31.39] Every decision made isn't mine anymore
[01:35.34] Like a puppet with strings, I just don't have a choice
[01:38.93] What's the truth? What's a lie?
[01:40.78] Help me, God, help me, Lord
[01:42.66] Face your fears, dry your eyes
[01:44.64] Grandma died, what's the point?
[01:46.54] Lost the keys, lost my hope, lost my will, lost my joy
[01:50.36] Lost a friend, lost my home, lost my faith, lost my voice
[01:57.22]
[02:10.49] Standing back, watching my mansion burn to ash while I
[02:24.86] Hold the gas can, asking God if He started this fire
[02:38.98] Is this what You wanted?
[02:42.64] Is this what You wanted?
[02:46.54] Make all my hopes and my dreams come to life just to lay them to rest
[02:54.02] Is this what You wanted?
[02:57.89] Is this what You wanted?
[03:01.99] Give me a false sense of peace just to show me what peace really is
[03:09.27] Is this what You wanted?
[03:11.65] On the verge, on the edge
[03:13.34] (Is this what You wanted?)
[03:15.19] Petrified, scared to death
[03:16.95] (Is this what You wanted?)
[03:19.17] Prayin' to God, desperate
[03:20.85] (Is this what You wanted, what You wanted?)
[03:24.40] (Is this what You wanted?)
[03:26.53] Hangin' on by a thread
[03:28.38] (Is this what You wanted?)
[03:30.40] Empty heart, nothin' left
[03:32.05] (Is this what You wanted?)
[03:34.22] Breakin' down, spiralin'
[03:35.87] (Is this what You wanted, what You wanted?)
[03:39.53] (Is this what You wanted?)
[03:41.62] Standing back (Is this what You wanted?)
[03:44.56] Watching my mansion (Is this what You wanted?)
[03:48.41] Burn to ash (Is this what You wanted?) while I (Oh, oh, oh)
[03:52.96] (What You wanted, is this what You wanted?)
[03:56.26] Hold the gas (Is this what You wanted?) can
[03:59.96] Asking God if (Is this what You wanted?)
[04:03.64] He started this fire (Is this what You wanted, what You wanted?)