Two Steps Back

[00:05.18] Uh
[00:06.42] All I got is honour and pride
[00:08.07] A few pills and a lot on my mind
[00:09.70] A few problems bottled inside
[00:11.26] Me? I feel hollow inside
[00:13.34] Come walk with me
[00:14.46] Yeah, just come follow behind
[00:16.28] 'Cause the way that I feel right now
[00:17.38] Not even a clock will stop my time
[00:19.84] My time is now
[00:20.98] 'Cause I fill my pen with heart and I write it down
[00:23.67] I let that pain flow, no game show, but I wipe it out
[00:27.19] Feel my pain, gotta write it down
[00:28.63] With a high, with a sound, and a mic and a crowd
[00:30.34] So ain't no way you gonna tie me down
[00:33.18] Get lost in the vibe
[00:34.26] We can escape, no matter what's on your mind
[00:35.32] Go find a place I ain't gone in my life
[00:36.97] While I'm wide awake lookin' across the sky
[00:38.52] See, I wanna vibe out, but I'm lost in my mind
[00:39.96] But I can't, someone give me a cost or a price
[00:41.70] For a time and place that I can write back
[00:43.27] 'Cause every night and day I'm seein' life collapse
[00:45.14] I don't wanna watch another day go by
[00:47.76] So i stay so high, thinkin' "I wanna escape this"
[00:51.37] Prayin' that this rapper shit will change my life
[00:54.41] Can't take my time if I really wanna make it
[00:58.70] And I do, and no one's gonna get in my way
[01:01.34] Some dudes out there think I've changed
[01:03.13] I'm still the same that I've been from day
[01:05.37] I ain't changed, man, I'm just on my grind
[01:07.83] Followin' my game plan, utilisin' time
[01:10.94] Wreck those beats and I get so deep
[01:12.34] Just rottin' my mind when I pen those sheets
[01:14.33] Creative mind, I'm awake all night
[01:15.89] With a page and a mic, can't get no sleep
[01:17.59] Yeah I fought nights
[01:18.80] Feel like I ain't slept in a fortnight
[01:20.46] Days ain't long enough, need more time
[01:21.87] As I take each breath and I walk by
[01:24.44] I see these demons and they whisperin' in my ears, still
[01:27.64] I hear these demons and they just won't disappear, still
[01:31.35] They wanna go deep inside
[01:32.03] My brain's lost and it ain't easy to find
[01:34.07] Or maybe I'm just sleep deprived
[01:35.48] Thinkin' other people can read my mind
[01:37.20] I feel separated
[01:39.14] That's why I'm medicated
[01:40.11] Every day I'm levitated
[01:41.87] Pen to the page, I'm dedicated
[01:43.76] Wonderin' if I'll ever make it
[01:45.18] I'ma just keep feelin' this music
[01:46.97] It-it don't matter if I do
[01:48.44] 'Cause it's so therapeutic
[01:49.91] I don't wanna watch another day go by
[01:52.94] So i stay so high, thinkin' "I wanna escape this"
[01:56.41] Prayin' that this rapper shit will change my life
[01:59.22] Can't take my time if I really wanna make it
[02:03.14] And I do, and no one's gonna get in my way
[02:05.95] Some dudes out there think I've changed
[02:07.54] I'm still the same that I've been from day
[02:09.71] I ain't changed, man, I'm just on my grind
[02:12.47] Followin' my game plan, utilisin' time
[02:15.58] At 14 I was a weed head
[02:17.37] 15 is when I hit speed
[02:18.79] At 16 I started spittin' these 16s to relieve stress
[02:21.97] At 17, I need meds
[02:24.16] I've come so far, but I blink
[02:25.19] I'm startin' to think "Was I ever clean?"
[02:26.85] I mean the last two years was a dream, yep
[02:29.12] I been a lean head
[02:30.52] Still tryna get clean, yep
[02:32.29] Well, at least I admitted it clean
[02:34.07] I call this livin' my dreams
[02:36.35] But maybe I just need to dream less
[02:38.16] 'Cause each mornin' and each breath
[02:40.26] I seek more and I sleep less
[02:41.74] I think I need warnin'
[02:43.31] But I don't wanna see death
[02:45.16] So I gotta keep on walking
[02:46.51] But I take more caution with each step
[02:48.47] I'm in deep, yep
[02:49.53] When I think back, so many regrets
[02:51.19] I mean I put myself in a situation
[02:52.61] Not thinkin' I'd get this depressed
[02:55.44] Have I had enough?
[02:56.42] Should I just go pack it up?
[02:58.01] Fuck the past, gotta use the present
[02:59.47] A gift for the future, wrap it up
[03:01.26] That's just what that rappin' does
[03:02.75] I got the passion and love
[03:04.61] But I'm good with words, not numbers
[03:06.38] And shit ain't addin' up
[03:07.72] I don't wanna watch another day go by
[03:10.39] So i stay so high, thinkin' "I wanna escape this"
[03:13.43] Prayin' that this rapper shit will change my life
[03:16.72] Can't take my time if I really wanna make it
[03:21.17] And I do, and no one's gonna get in my way
[03:24.10] Some dudes out there think I've changed
[03:25.60] I'm still the same that I've been from day
[03:27.82] I ain't changed, man, I'm just on my grind
[03:30.12] Followin' my game plan, utilisin' time
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