Not Myself Today

[00:03.98] I was ready to be grown-up
[00:06.24] Just waiting for the day
[00:08.34] And now I am I'm freaking
[00:10.39] Does Mommy feel this way?
[00:12.19] See, they think that I have answers
[00:14.65] They look to me to guide
[00:16.64] They see this old, old woman
[00:19.21] But there's a little girl inside
[00:26.83] I'm not myself today
[00:30.66] I'm in a funny way
[00:33.45] I'm not the thing they think they see
[00:38.95] This alpha mommy
[00:40.50] She's not me
[00:42.06] They want a woman I can't be
[00:46.10] And words that I can't say
[00:50.39] I'm not the woman I thought I was
[00:53.26] I'm not myself today
[00:58.58] I had no idea a woman
[01:00.77] Could feel so damn dismissed
[01:02.82] They smile and call me "sweetheart"
[01:04.92] Does Ellie feel like this?
[01:06.87] See, if only they would listen
[01:09.06] I could get the search on track
[01:11.24] But when they hear me talking
[01:13.76] They just think I'm talking back
[01:19.21] I'm not myself tonight
[01:23.16] And more than me's not right
[01:25.88] 'Cause Fletcher's lost and so am I
[01:31.46] It's not that often by the by
[01:34.25] I wish I were a six foot guy
[01:38.23] But I want to win this fight
[01:42.64] I'm not the woman I need to be
[01:45.40] I'm not myself tonight
[01:49.08] If I had a kid
[01:50.24] And the kid ran away
[01:51.69] I'd hunt him down and kill him
[01:54.63] My god!
[01:55.98] What a thing to say!
[02:00.41] If I had a kid
[02:01.96] And the kid ran away
[02:03.35] I would find him
[02:04.76] I would hold him
[02:06.02] And then I'd kill him
[02:07.55] Okay
[02:09.03] I'm sorry!
[02:10.42] I'm not myself today
[02:13.74] Hey, are you okay?
[02:16.00] Are you okay?
[02:17.61] I'm not okay
[02:20.72] What a day
[02:24.62] Even with all of this
[02:26.13] Messed up between us
[02:27.59] I thought I would do better
[02:30.49] I thought I'd know the way
[02:36.48] I mean, even as you
[02:38.25] I'm a mess of a person
[02:39.70] Can't get my crap together
[02:42.63] I'm also a mess I'd say
[02:46.14] I'm not myself today!
[02:47.56] I'm not myself today!
[02:48.99] I'm not myself today!
[02:50.58] I'm not myself
[02:51.60] I'm not myself today!
[02:53.19] I'm not myself today (Fletcher!)
[02:54.66] I'm in an awful way (Hey Fletch!)
[02:58.84] I know I should be standing tall (ah)
[03:03.39] I never felt so (hey)
[03:05.79] Young and small (hey Fletcher)
[03:06.73] It breaks my heart
[03:08.40] To hear them call (Fletcher hey)
[03:11.06] When there's nothing I can say (hey Fletcher)
[03:15.09] I'm not the woman
[03:16.07] I thought I was (hey)
[03:17.89] I'm not the woman
[03:18.94] I wished I'd be (hey)
[03:20.80] I'm not myself today (hey)
[03:23.41] Hey (hey)
[03:24.49] Hey (hey)
[03:27.81] I'm not myself
[03:29.72] Today! (Fletcher! Fletcher! Fletcher!)
[03:36.40] Hey!
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