Where Was Heaven

[00:01.37] Shit, sometimes man I just,
[00:04.05] get stressed out I be like damn yo,
[00:06.78] I wanna go over here and smack a nigga up
[00:10.45] you know what I'm sayin'
[00:11.33] Crime Syndicate shit though niggaz know us
[00:13.14] Know what I'm saying my peeps put me on
[00:14.94] For real ... shit's fucked up yo
[00:19.47] You know what I'm saying religion's all good
[00:21.23] But where was heaven? Yo
[00:23.95] An ordinary cat from outta projects
[00:25.76] Since I was younger though
[00:27.55] Mom raised her children
[00:28.46] Pops dipped a long time ago
[00:30.23] In my mind I see flashbacks
[00:32.06] I had no fancy clothes
[00:32.95] Skinny, ugly, notty head nigga crying with a snotty nose
[00:35.63] Even though my father neglect he pay the child support
[00:39.28] Hadn't seen him all these years
[00:41.07] I hug his ass in court
[00:41.95] Always saying I'm coming to get you and I be waiting to
[00:44.64] Holiday and birthday presents was never coming through
[00:48.28] 'Member at the age 13 I started smoking weed
[00:50.95] Hangin' out wid cats that was older start to run the street
[00:54.58] Dropped outta high school selling drugs, impressing chics
[00:57.26] Spent most my cheddar on gear
[00:59.13] My man was buying whips
[01:00.04] New York, Jamaican, Miami niggaz
[01:01.86] Flooded Virginia quick
[01:03.65] Cause signing work only if buying
[01:05.43] pressure was high as shit
[01:06.35] 'Member when I first got hit
[01:08.14] I seen the iron spit
[01:09.04] 50 cash bend in one corner bleeding where pellet hit
[01:11.78] My man Shawnny Hill doing strong
[01:13.53] Slug burnt through his lower back side
[01:16.26] Cracked his spine exit his arm
[01:18.06] Lost him twice on the hospital table
[01:19.87] And when he died I cried my eyes out
[01:21.67] I couldn't take it (damn damn)
[01:23.48] But the same things continued to happen
[01:26.15] Niggaz got bust
[01:26.64] I'm a kid with a grown man's mind turning corrupt
[01:30.25] Playing innocent infront of my elders
[01:32.07] I was running with them cats that be robbing to awkward (man tell 'em)
[01:35.83] If my name was up in any type trouble
[01:38.51] My moms would tell me
[01:39.43] Just like you brothers into some shit go get a job or something
[01:42.13] Just a little bum on the street
[01:43.96] Not working hard for nottin'
[01:45.75] Scratch I made whenever pumping
[01:46.65] I'm here to offer something
[01:48.47] Making sure the crib stay tight
[01:50.25] For real I weren't no dummy
[01:51.17] Simmy where you gettin' this money
[01:52.96] I wash a car be lying
[01:53.86] Saying anything 'sides drugs selling
[01:56.55] My sister seen me on the block
[01:58.36] Transact with fiends saying I'ma tell it
[02:00.16] Growing up was hell no doubt
[02:01.94] I wonder where was heaven
[02:04.68] For real though,
[02:05.55] Always look for that place call heaven,
[02:09.12] It's never there,
[02:10.96] I seen my man's an' 'em gets. just get blasted
[02:13.64] on the block,
[02:15.42] Know what I'm saying?
[02:16.34] I go in the crib I got stains all over my shirt
[02:18.05] Know what I'm saying?
[02:19.88] And my mom's knew the type of shit I was going through
[02:22.60] Cause I was a project kid
[02:23.98] Now I'm a grown man
[02:24.88] Still It's like life dealt me the wrong hand
[02:26.64] Cat's that was my man be frontin'
[02:29.35] Or either found dead
[02:30.28] Sound said incarcerated just turned a new dad
[02:32.97] Remembering them long ten months from slengin'crack bags
[02:36.56] Mom put me out with the quickness
[02:38.35] Carry your black ass
[02:39.29] I'm still coming back to the crib
[02:41.06] Oh so you back here
[02:41.99] Ma I jut came to holler to see how you doing
[02:45.17] Nothing's changed after all these years
[02:46.95] Still hustle for some gear
[02:48.75] Smoke weed, still drink beers
[02:50.55] I tell you from my heart
[02:52.39] Yo, times I'm like yeah
[02:54.18] I wonder if heaven has a place on this planet
[02:56.03] I'd find it right there.
[02:59.53] Just a kid though,
[03:08.54] All I wanna roll wid
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