The Search - Edit

[00:02.60] Hey Nate, how's life?
[00:04.27] I don't know, it's alright
[00:06.18] I've been dealin' with some things like every human being
[00:08.28] And really didn't sleep much last night
[00:10.10] I'm sorry
[00:11.23] That's fine
[00:12.37] I just think I need a little me time
[00:14.16] I just think I need a little free time
[00:15.96] Little break from the shows and the bus rides
[00:18.12] Last year, I had a breakdown
[00:20.04] Thoughts tellin' me I'm lost, gettin' too loud
[00:22.12] Had to see a therapist then I found out
[00:24.07] Somethin' funny's going on up in my house
[00:26.01] Yeah, started thinkin' maybe I should move out
[00:28.05] You know pack my cart, take a new route
[00:29.98] Clean up my yard, get the noose out
[00:31.93] Hang up my heart, let it air out
[00:34.29] I've been searchin'
[00:35.35] What does that mean, Nate? I've been learnin'
[00:37.26] Grabbin' my keepsakes
[00:38.51] Leavin' my burdens
[00:39.58] Well, I brought a few with me, I'm not perfect
[00:41.47] Lookin' at the view like this concerns me
[00:43.49] Pickin' up the cues right? I'm quite nervous
[00:45.41] Hate it when I lose sight, life gets blurry
[00:47.30] And things might hurt me
[00:48.42] It's prolly gonna be a long journey, but hey!
[00:50.49] It's worth it though
[00:51.76] Cold world out there, kids grab your coats
[00:53.62] Been a minute I know, now I'm back to roam
[00:55.53] Looking for the antidote
[00:56.85] To crack the code
[00:57.80] Pretty vivid, I admit it, I'm in classic mode
[00:59.61] Don't need pity given to me, but I can't condone
[01:01.64] Talkin' down to me, I'ma have to crack your nose
[01:03.60] For crackin' jokes
[01:04.45] I'm lookin' for the map to hope
[01:05.62] You seen it?
[01:06.57] Been makin' a whole lot of changes
[01:08.01] Wrote a song about that you should play it
[01:10.03] I get scared when I walk on these stages
[01:11.83] I look at the crowd and see so many faces
[01:13.84] Yeah
[01:14.51] That's when I start to get anxious
[01:16.14] That's when my thoughts can be dangerous
[01:18.18] That's when I put on my makeup
[01:19.70] And drown in self-hatred, forget what I'm sayin an'-
[01:22.58] Where the beat go?
[01:24.08] Ohh
[01:24.95] Ain't that somethin'
[01:25.94] Drums came in, you ain't see that comin'
[01:27.79] Hands on my head, can't tell me nothin'
[01:29.64] Gotta taste of the fame, had to pump my stomach
[01:31.61] Throw it back up like I don't want it
[01:33.69] Wipe my face, clean off my vomit
[01:35.75] OCD tryna push my buttons
[01:37.62] I said don't touch it
[01:38.92] Now y'all done it
[01:39.84] I can be critical
[01:40.68] Never typical
[01:41.44] Intricate with every syllable
[01:42.58] I'm a criminal
[01:43.44] Intimate but never political
[01:44.54] Pretty visual
[01:45.39] Even if you hate it, I make you feel like you're in it though
[01:47.29] You call me what you wanna, but never call me forgettable
[01:49.25] Leave you deep in thought, I could never swim in the kiddy pool
[01:51.34] Way that I be thinkin' is cinematic, it's beautiful
[01:53.31] Man, I don't know if I'm makin' movies or music videos (videos)
[01:56.33] The sales can rise
[01:57.66] Doesn't mean much though when your health declines
[01:59.65] See we've all got somethin' that we've trapped inside
[02:01.65] That we try to suffocate, you know hoping it dies
[02:03.70] Try to hold it under water
[02:04.96] But it always survives
[02:05.80] Then it comes up out of nowhere like an evil surprise
[02:07.69] Then it hovers over you to tell you millions of lies
[02:09.66] You don't relate to that, must not be as crazy I am
[02:11.58] The point I'm makin is the mind is a powerful place
[02:13.57] And what you feed it can affect you in a powerful way
[02:15.62] It's pretty cool right? Yeah, but it's not always safe
[02:17.52] Just hang with me, this will only take a moment okay
[02:19.57] Just think about it for a second if you look at your face
[02:21.56] Every day when you get up and think you'll never be great
[02:23.65] You'll never be great
[02:24.56] Not because you're not but the hate
[02:25.71] Will always find a way to cut you up and murder your faith
[02:27.67] (Whoo)
[02:28.08] I been developin'
[02:28.97] Take a look at the benefits
[02:29.85] Nothin' to meddle with
[02:30.83] I could never be delicate
[02:31.85] Am I even relevant
[02:32.71] That depends how you measure it
[02:33.88] Take a measurement
[02:34.54] Then bag it up and give me the evidence
[02:35.69] Pretty evident
[02:36.33] Dependable
[02:36.99] Can never be tentative
[02:37.71] I'm a gentleman
[02:38.36] Depending on if I think you're genuine
[02:39.55] Pretty elegant
[02:40.36] But not afraid to tell you to get a grip
[02:41.52] Proper etiquette
[02:42.45] I keep it to myself when I celebrate
[02:44.03] It's that time again
[02:45.72] Better grab your balloons and invite your friends
[02:47.64] Seatbelts back on, yeah, strap 'em in
[02:49.60] Look at me everybody, I'm smilin' big
[02:51.60] On a road right now, that I can't predict
[02:53.61] Tell me tone that down, but I can't resist
[02:55.62] Y'all know that sound, better raise your fist
[02:57.63] The search begins
[02:58.59] I'm back, so enjoy the trip
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