Never There

[00:13.70] I thought of reaching out, we could take this slow
[00:17.73] Hesitation turned to habit, never made the call
[00:21.60] No branch to break my fall
[00:25.26] I'd have so much to tell you, but I
[00:29.43] Drink 'til I can't blink
[00:32.23] And I fill my brain with holes
[00:36.26] My voice is worse for wear
[00:39.81] Because I lost my self-control, I've lost my hope
[00:50.52] (I've lost my hope)
[00:57.94] Now I don't wanna say I'm scared
[01:01.81] 'Cause I don't want you to think
[01:05.65] That this life I slave away for
[01:09.33] Is what brings an end to me
[01:12.97] But now I'm walking through my life with a clenched up fist
[01:16.72] Holding back the tears and feelings that I never spent
[01:20.63] I try to find a purpose or a path to set
[01:24.52] But I've only found the void, and so I
[01:28.53] Drink 'til I can't blink
[01:31.52] And I fill my brain with holes
[01:35.24] Because the place that I feel safest
[01:39.08] It was never there, never there at all
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