Growing Sideways

[00:00.18] So, I took my medication and I poured my trauma out
[00:05.85] On some sad-eyed middle aged man's overpriced new leather couch
[00:11.33] And we argued about Jesus, finally found some middle ground
[00:16.37] I said, "I'm cured"
[00:21.97] And I divvied up my anger into 30 separate parts
[00:27.55] Keep the bad shit in my liver, and the rest around my heart
[00:32.96] I'm still angry at my parents, for what their parents did to them
[00:38.06] But it's a start
[00:42.85] But I ignore things, and I move sideways
[00:48.36] 'Til I forget what I felt in the first place
[00:53.42] At the end of the day, I know there are worse ways
[00:58.99] To stay alive
[01:04.13] 'Cause everyone's growing and everyone's healthy
[01:09.55] I'm terrified that I might never have met me
[01:15.14] Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty
[01:20.58] I guess I'll drive
[01:25.83] I guess I'll drive
[01:31.62] So, I forgot my medication, fell into a manic high
[01:37.44] Spent my savings at a Lulu, now I'm sufferin' in style
[01:42.50] Why is pain so damn impatient? Ain't like it's got a place to be
[01:48.48] Keeps rushin' me
[01:53.07] But I ignore things, and I move sideways
[01:58.22] 'Til I forget what I felt in the first place
[02:03.43] At the end of the day, I know there are worse ways
[02:08.92] To stay alive
[02:14.21] 'Cause everyone's growing and everyone's healthy
[02:19.59] I'm terrified that I might never have met me
[02:25.31] Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty
[02:30.63] I guess I'll drive
[02:36.37] And if all my life was wasted
[02:41.85] I don't mind, I'll watch it go
[02:47.32] Yeah, it's better to die numb than feel it all
[02:57.72] Oh, if all my time was wasted
[03:03.38] I don't mind, I'll watch it go
[03:08.89] Yeah, it's better to die numb than feel it all
[03:19.20] But I ignore things, and I move sideways
[03:24.53] Until I forget what I felt in the first place
[03:29.86] At the end of the day, Lord knows there are worse ways
[03:35.17] To stay alive
[03:40.79] 'Cause everyone's growing and everyone's healthy
[03:46.32] I'm terrified that I might never have met me
[03:51.48] Oh, if my engine works perfect on empty
[03:56.98] I guess I'll drive
[04:02.36] I guess I'll drive
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