Confessions

Will I find my way
Through the flames left in my way
For the one thing that I'm dying to say

Confessions through my mistakes I had to learn some lessons
There's things i just didn't address in the right way
On the path to love
There were no right words to say
I was in the wrong and I knew it
I took your heart and I bruised it
I knew better than anyone the hold she had on you
But I was hoping and waiting
That time would heal your wounds
But in time I felt like I had to choose
I made my choice you were the one that I would rather lose
Saying that out loud
Never thought that I would do it
Dependence to the paper and I spew it
You know I left our friendship in ruins
Try to piece it back together
But honestly you know that the truth is
That I never cared about how you felt
Was focused on myself
Was only focused on the cards that she dealt
I took those same cards
Tried to build a house in the 'ville
And now I'm stuck here with you
In a similar cell it been three years
That's a long time
I thought maybe it was enough that we would be fine
Thinking to myself "like why can't you move on"
And now it's three years later and I'm writing the same song
About the same girl
About the same pain
Can't get her out my brain
It's crazy how the tables turn
See I've been trying to say I'm sorry
But I just can't find the words

It's hard to find the strength to face
Bet I never should have shoved her away
From who I've been and what i've done
This is more than a confession

I haven't been forgiven
And that's ok
Now I can't blame you 'cause I pushed you away
And I know that things will never be the same
It's my fault and you still have so much left to say
You never really took the chance to tell me off
And when you had the chance
All you ever did was let me talk
Didn't want to let it out
And when it comes to our friendship
I know that you've been haveing doubts
See we don't want to face it
Time can erase it
I'm in my room right now
I'm writing I'm pacing
Man there's gotta be a way
That we can fix this
Finding out the hard way
That time no that don't heal shit
Times doesn't heal lonely people do
I know it's true
I'm in this battle right now
And it feels like i'm losing you
The worst part is that I can't pretend
Like any of this would have happened if I had been a better friend

It's hard to find the strength to face
Bet I never should have shoved her away
From who I've been
And what I've done
This is more than a confession

It's hard to find the strength to face
Bet I never should have shoved her away
From who I've been
And what I've done
This is more than a confession

More than a confession