Hospital Bed

[00:04.46] What if I'm selfish?
[00:06.37] What if I didn't give enough?
[00:08.68] What if I'm guarded?
[00:10.84] And never got to feel real love
[00:13.30] What if there's more I never learned?
[00:16.23] And I can't heal the ones I've hurt?
[00:18.80] What if regret's all I deserve?
[00:20.53] The day they put me in the dirt
[00:23.24] It's haunting me, haunting me
[00:25.04] Haunting me, haunting me
[00:27.15] All the things I never said, and a past I can't forget
[00:31.72] It's calling me, calling me
[00:33.97] Haunting me, haunting me
[00:36.09] What am I gonna regret
[00:38.17] Lying in my hospital bed
[00:41.49] (it's haunting me, haunting me)
[00:43.37] (Haunting me, haunting me)
[00:45.35] What am I gonna regret?
[00:47.19] Lying in my hospital bed
[00:51.65] What if I pushed out?
[00:53.52] The ones that cared the most
[00:55.92] What if I'm too proud?
[00:58.38] To let anybody close
[01:00.17] What if I turn my heart to stone
[01:03.25] 'Cause nothing hurts when hollow's home
[01:05.56] What if I cope by letting go
[01:07.76] And I'm the reason, I'm alone
[01:10.14] It's haunting me, haunting me
[01:12.31] Haunting me, haunting me
[01:14.36] All the things I never said, and a past I can't forget
[01:18.82] It's calling me, calling me
[01:21.07] Haunting me, haunting me
[01:23.23] What am I gonna regret
[01:25.58] Lying in my hospital bed
[01:28.12] (it's haunting me, haunting me)
[01:30.44] (Haunting me, haunting me)
[01:32.12] What am I gonna regret?
[01:34.02] Lying in my hospital bed
[01:37.07] (It's calling me, calling me)
[01:39.07] (Haunting me, haunting me)
[01:41.15] What am I gonna regret?
[01:45.92] May sound strange, but I gotta confess
[01:47.98] Since I was young I've been thinking about death
[01:49.92] Stuck inside my mind, inside my mind
[01:52.40] With the "What if I's", "What if I's"
[01:54.73] May sound strange, but I gotta confess
[01:56.72] Since I was young I've been thinking about death
[01:59.28] Stuck inside my mind, inside my mind
[02:01.89] With the "What if I's", "What if I's"
[02:13.41] It's haunting me, haunting me
[02:15.32] Haunting me, haunting me
[02:17.22] All the things I never said, and a past I can't forget
[02:21.82] It's calling me, calling me
[02:24.21] Haunting me, haunting me
[02:26.40] What am I gonna regret
[02:28.66] What am I gonna regret?
[02:31.06] May sound strange, but I gotta confess
[02:32.75] Since I was young I've been thinking about death
[02:34.61] What am I gonna regret?
[02:37.37] Lying in my hospital bed
[02:39.81] May sound strange, but I gotta confess
[02:41.63] Since I was young I've been thinking about death
[02:43.94] What am I gonna regret?
[02:46.54] Lying in my hospital bed
[02:50.61] Was I too distant?
[02:53.25] Disassociated my dad, too inconsistent
[02:57.38] Cause I never learned how to relax
[02:59.43] Hearing "baby Don't cry"
[03:01.36] "He don't wanna play"
[03:02.65] "Daddy's feeling anxious, give him some space"
[03:04.99] Memory loss that I can't replace
[03:07.23] She'll be talking about me in therapy someday
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