Different Love

[00:42.41] It go, off of my sabbatical
[00:45.22] Took a few years 'cause slaughter is what I had to do
[00:48.04] Which only brings me to now, and I ought to be a radical
[00:50.94] Say that 'cause my autobiographical is more so just a graph of you
[00:54.91] I ain't mad, you did more than what I asked of you
[00:57.75] As for me, I did less than what I could've
[01:00.08] So though we were a hit, had to cancel that show
[01:02.23] And now my standing solo, I'll be amped when she not a ho
[01:05.16] But what you doing right now is real commendable
[01:07.55] Take strength to do
[01:08.59] 'Cause between us there's some deep root stare
[01:10.73] I gave you the best dick you ever got in your life
[01:13.16] And stupid me, thought it would be enough to keep you there
[01:15.87] I thought you loved football
[01:17.46] I was running through the hole with the stiff on
[01:19.56] But got disarmed, guess it was just harm
[01:21.70] I ain't need to fuck, I was looking for a peer
[01:24.17] They say once you stop looking, what you looking for appears
[01:26.93] You were stronger than I pictured you, much stronger than me
[01:30.50] And almost just as strong as John
[01:32.47] And John, oh, that's just a friend of my mom's
[01:35.15] With tubes coming out his nose, but shit I never knew why
[01:37.82] But he was born with his heart in the right side of his chest
[01:40.50] No, for real, his heart's in the right side of his chest (where?)
[01:43.75] Doctors confused, they must do what they can do
[01:45.81] But impute and say it ain't on the right side of his chest (hey)
[01:48.97] Scared he might die in his sleep, deep (hey, hey)
[01:51.31] Every time he cough wonders if it's a cough or it's a symptom
[01:54.56] Us will get better later
[01:56.18] He gon' live his whole life waking up every morning to a respirator
[02:00.19] So I don't never say what I can't do
[02:02.27] If he can be happy with life, then, nigga, I can too
[02:05.20] While José wanna die
[02:06.73] Ain't tell nobody, but eyeing his eyes feel I should probably identify
[02:10.61] Said everyday he lives with pain and want to end it
[02:13.42] Something's wired wrong in your brain, you gotta mend it
[02:16.49] Had a bad breakup and let it expose dude
[02:18.50] But if she was getting you high, then she would get you low too
[02:21.55] So, who's there to wait on me?
[02:24.25] Y'all just get it off y'all, and put the weight on me
[02:26.95] Nigga look me in my eyes, it was amazing to me
[02:29.65] And said she don't understand, you not as crazy as me
[02:32.08] You got gone, nigga, I'm the most mentally flawed nigga
[02:35.32] You not even built to withstand all I've endured, nigga
[02:38.52] You know shit about the thoughts in my head
[02:40.53] Or the strength I need daily just to get out of bed
[02:43.28] Just to open my eyes, nigga, open your eyes
[02:46.03] The words spoken of wise, you just know a disguise
[02:48.70] We can end this right here, I got nothing more to say to you
[02:51.92] You ain't never met another fucking nigga crazier
[02:55.03] Blank stare, couldn't believe 'em
[02:57.08] Cat chastised me 'cause I got help when you need some
[03:00.07] I can give less than a fuck and not a damn
[03:02.25] I never be apologetic over who I am
[03:05.29] I'm the same me, nothing changes when the riches do
[03:08.13] But niggas wanna suck you dry, just like the bitches do
[03:11.17] They enter your mentions, sucks to be the center of attention
[03:14.36] When you can't even center your attention
[03:16.65] Yeah, so I'm fucking out of frustration
[03:19.03] They love every second and accuse me of persuasion
[03:21.75] Jam was a cancer to me, I had to rid it
[03:24.44] Red got in her feelings fast, but won't admit it
[03:27.10] Dawn I was bored then, never really smithen
[03:30.16] V got threatened by the thought of competition
[03:32.87] Malo wanna fuck all day, don't know how
[03:35.11] She why I got a Viagra in my wallet right now
[03:38.08] Steph kept it simple, loved me for my mental
[03:41.05] B got a nigga, but she used me as her rental
[03:43.41] And you, you just give me resistance
[03:46.43] Say you needed comfort zone, for you it's distance
[03:49.11] I tell 'em all I'm not available emotionally
[03:52.07] They start giving me advice like they coaching me
[03:54.69] I don't even ask it
[03:56.19] It's something 'bout bipolar sociopath shit
[03:58.49] They just find it attractive
[04:00.12] Yeah, anti-social, but I mingle now
[04:02.43] But I've been arguing much more since I've been single, how?
[04:05.48] Tell me, is this a relationship or just a fuckship?
[04:08.35] Whatever situation it is, it's all fuck shit
[04:11.84] I'll admit it, I might love her a li'l differently
[04:14.30] As for them they'd all love to see a different me
[04:17.29] Some cried to me, some are begging for it
[04:19.92] Someone'll see that change, but not be present for it
[04:23.58] You just act so frightened
[04:25.15] Ignoring all logic now, she won't buy in
[04:28.12] Even in your absence my feelings are heightened
[04:31.01] Though I know some love's lost, it's not on my end
[04:35.52] It's not mine, it's not mine at all
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