HATE JONES - poem

[00:00.70] If I was you, I'd hate me too
[00:03.51] Hate the way I traded love for selfish thrills
[00:06.13] I left you piecing together the glass of every broken promise
[00:09.27] I became the reason you stopped trusting
[00:13.35] The shadow you searched for in every room
[00:15.52] And the regrets you carried every day from trusting me
[00:18.33] I kept cheating. I admit it
[00:20.38] Moments stolen in dim rooms
[00:23.09] Whispers shared with other women when they should've been shared with you
[00:26.81] And I hid it all
[00:27.93] Every trace, every message erased
[00:30.76] Like pressing delete could clean my hands
[00:32.86] Every glance that wasn't meant for you
[00:35.90] Every laugh, every name I forgot to mention
[00:39.13] I made you feel small while I played big
[00:42.18] Pretending that I could have it all
[00:44.39] And still keep you waiting
[00:46.17] Yes, I lied to you again and again
[00:49.94] Until it was second nature, until the truth was just an echo
[00:53.64] I buried beneath all the noise of my own excuses
[00:56.75] I know I turned love into a game
[00:59.57] I placed you in a race you never agreed to run
[01:02.46] You were never in competition, but I made it feel that way
[01:05.89] As if love was a prize you had to earn
[01:08.78] As if I was worth the hurt and the hope
[01:11.23] Two years of breaking every promise while you held on
[01:15.37] Waiting for something real
[01:17.31] Two years of half-truth and hollow words
[01:20.38] You wanted honesty and I gave you theatre
[01:23.99] I played the role of someone good while slipping further to someone I can't defend
[01:29.12] Now I'm left with the pieces of my own making
[01:31.88] The story of why I was never enough
[01:34.11] Why I was always falling short
[01:36.16] And I don't blame you for the anger, the bitterness
[01:40.44] Because if I could step outside myself and see me the way you do
[01:45.35] Hell, maybe y'all would hate me too
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